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Hey, I’m Arun.

How did I get here?

My family moved to this country when I was a little kid. It was tough to adjust at first – we didn’t have a lot of money and my father had to work two jobs to support our family.

When I was a teenager, I began to suspect that I was gay. It was confusing for me and I didn’t know how to deal with it, so I just kept it to myself.

After graduating from high school I moved away to University –far from my family and the community I grew up in. That was a whole new experience for me. At first I missed my family and felt pretty lonely. Even though I met a lot of new people, I never really felt like I fit in . I was also struggling with my identity.

Now after a couple months at university, I’ve started having problems sleeping. Last week I overslept and I missed a couple of morning classes. When I am in class, it’s hard to concentrate on the lecture. Even reading is difficult - I just can’t seem to stay focused for very long.

Every day seems to get harder and harder. Little things easily irritate me now.  Sometimes I snap at other people. I’ve started turning down invitations to go out with friends. They probably don’t want to hang out with me anyways.

I just don’t understand why I’m feeling this way.