How did I get here?

I am a regular kid. I got through high school with decent marks. I played on a soccer team in high school. After graduation, I took a job for a couple of years, working with my dad and then decided to go to university.

I was worried about leaving home to go to university. I felt lonely at first because I didn’t know anyone. After a few months, I connected with a girl, but the relationship didn’t last. I blame myself for the breakup. After that I started having problems sleeping.

Now I'm struggling at school.

I oversleep and miss classes. Even in class, I have a hard time concentrating. At times, I feel that nothing in my life is going right, and that I'll never amount to anything. I feel tired a lot of the time and struggle to finish assignments. Even reading is a hassle - I can’t seem to keep my mind on it for very long. I mostly wonder whether my future will be one boring, meaningless or awful year after another. I barely care how my soccer team is doing in the standings. Like a lot of things, I just don’t find it that interesting anymore.

I've become impossible to be around.

Whenever something goes wrong, I blame myself, even if it's totally out of my control. Little things irritate me, and sometimes I snap at other people without meaning to. I started turning down invitations to go out with my friends. They probably don’t want to hang out with a loser like me anyways.

Today I’m supposed to be in class, but my cellphone died, so my alarm didn’t go off. I missed the bus, so I just walked past the stop to the park.