How did I get here?

I’ve always been someone who puts 100% into everything I do. In grade 8, I started running cross country, and it was pretty much all I did. I competed in regionals and helped my school team win their first gold ever. My parents always told their friends that if I was focused on something, I would find a way to excel at it.

Spending time with friends has always been really important to me. I’m always the one who organizes and plans out parties, weekends, and camping trips.

I like drinking. It helps me to let go. I’m usually the one who looks after everyone else, but when I drink I can give all that up.  

I often go out with my co-workers or friends to unwind after work. Sometimes, after a night of drinking, I can’t remember much of what happened.

This morning is pretty bad. Last night we celebrated my friend’s new job and I drank way more I had planned to. Seems like it's been party time more nights than not for the past six months. I should have been at work by 9 am, but this morning I can barely move. 

I decided to grab a cup of coffee at the local coffee shop and wander through the park to get my head together before I show up at work.