How did I get here?

I've always enjoyed being the centre of attention. People tell me I have a great sense of humour. I love sports, especially hockey. After finishing high school, I decided to learn a trade – carpentry. Everything seemed to be going well, but lately I’ve been feeling different – not like I used to be. The thing is, I can’t quite put my finger on what’s changed. I’ve been trying to live a healthy lifestyle and have hardly smoked any dope or done any drugs at all for months.

One day, I was taking the bus to work when I noticed a woman sitting across from me who was staring at me like she was mad at me. Then I kinda freaked when I realized it was not just that one woman, but the whole rear of the bus glaring in my direction. I was so confused and alarmed, that I got off the bus way before my stop and walked the rest of the way. It was so strange - I couldn't stop thinking about it all the way home.

Work is becoming more and more frustrating because I'm finding it difficult to focus on the job. My boss asked if anything was going on, but I just shrugged off his concern. I’m worried about what others might think if I tell them anything, so I stay quiet about what I've been feeling.

Today, I was feeling really uneasy and nervous. I was sitting down having breakfast, and swear I heard someone whispering my name. I decided I had to get out of my apartment and get some fresh air, so went out for a walk to clear my head.