How did I get here?

I've always been shy around other people. When I was little, I was quiet and preferred to play with just one or two other children. When I reached my teens, I started feeling very uneasy when around people I didn’t know very well. Iwas sure they would notice me and make negative judgments about me.   

Now in Grade 12, I rarely join class discussions and dread having to do class presentations. I avoid doing anything that might draw attention to myself. I usually eat my lunch alone, away from the rest of the students.

I often feel uncomfortable in social situations and worry that I’ll say something stupid. Starting a conversation is difficult for me.  When I do talk to others, I feel shaky and nauseous even though I know there’s no reason to be really nervous.

Today I decide to take my dog for a walk to the park. I sit down by my favourite tree and watch the other people from a distance. I wish I could be more outgoing and not worry so much about what others think of me.